يا أهلي يا حبي يا حتة من قلبي

The so called inner conflicts

when u have too much thoughts in ur mind and u just need someone to grab all of them out of it just to make ur mind relax.. what shall u do , when u have this endless conversation between your heart and mind ,,, heart pushing u in and ur mind is pulling you out... when u feel u  r something filling gaps ... meaningless ... not important... not a priority... when u feel that ur feelings are meaningless .... just no appreciation or even consideration
sometimes i feel i want to scream and say enough i am a human being... but something stops me saying don't think too much live the moment as it is and leave all the sorrows behind your back
sometimes i feel i need this care by my side ... but my dignity pushes me away and pushes my thoughts away.... i need a surprise a sign of appreciation and care... a sign of love and loving more.... i am scared of being pushed away even without a reason... too much is too much and too much pressure will lead to a disaster or a catastrophe
i know love is here and is in the air but pushing away may kill it in an unbelievable way

i have a lot of conflicts in my mind .... but my heart is pulling me in ...... God give me strength